40th day of Lent

It is quiet today. Usually that is how it is the day after someone is buried. There's still a lot of food around with an occasional relative or close friend lingering in the guest bedrrom. But mostly it is a wearisome, lonely, and quiet day - the day after someone is buried. There is numbness to the emotions at this point in the grief process. It is a feeling of "not wanting to wake up" for fear the nightmare might just be true. There is no happy music or funny television programs filling the air on the day after someone is buried. Mostly it is quiet with only whispers filling the air. Tears are still hanging around, but mostly the tears have emptied the tear ducts, and the feeling of the need to cry is not accompanied by tears - there just aren't any more tears to shed.

Jesus is dead and buried in a borrowed tomb. It is finally over. The shouts of anger, and the conspiracy of false accusations have ceased. There's no need to bully Jesus anymore, he's dead. He knew it was over. He cried, "It is finished!" while he died on that cruel tree. He knew it was over. They can't hurt him anymore. I hope they are happy now! They got what they wanted. Jesus is buried. The tomb is sealed and posted with armed guards - which seems silly to me. He's dead! Don't they get it - Jesus is dead!

I'll be quiet today and reflect on these 40 days of journey. Here I am once again on the last day of the week on the last day of Lent wondering what next week will hold for me. I hope it is good and healthy. I hope this journey of Lent has prepared me for what is about to happen. I hope it has made a difference in my heart and life. I hope. It is a quiet that feels a little like the "calm before the storm." I'll wait and see what tomorrow brings.


One last note to the reader:

These blogs have been a therapeutic process for me. I thank you for taking the time to read, and I hope somewhere along the way it has been helpful to your journey of faith. Where do I go from here? Your ideas as to the future of "Very Terry" blogging are appreciated. This blog does not wish to "wear out its welcome." But this blog does not want to "cease prematurely" either. Let me know your thoughts either in the comment section of the blog or at twalton@gfumc.com. Thanks.