29th day of Lent

Lent is getting long for me. Why does it seem long? Is it the 40 days or is it the subject matter? I know that "40 days" in the Bible doesn’t literally mean "40 days." It symbolically means "a very long time." I am feeling "that" today - "a very long time." I am tired of introspection. I am tired of preparation for the cross and resurrection. I’m ready for it to be here. Why am I so ready?

Maybe I’m ready for Lent to be here because I’m tired of doing these blogs. Maybe I’m ready because I feel a need for a different routine. Maybe I’m just plain weary with all the "stuff" that goes with Lent and Easter. Maybe I’m weary of looking inward and am ready to look somewhere (anywhere) else. Maybe the lessons of Lent are getting too close to home for me, and I’ve dealt with sin and its presence in me and around me enough. Or maybe, just maybe, I’m just ready.

Whatever the reason, I can’t rush certain things - this is one of those things. I can’t rush the cross, and I can’t rush Easter. I suppose there is a lesson in the fact that I’m just going to have to accept the fact that there are still 11 days of Lent yet to be experienced. Lent may seem long to me, but Lent is not done with me. What lessons does she still have for me?